Today, I bet we have some new readers responding to the email we sent out. AWESOME! It's great to have you join us here! This is not just a blog but a way for me to share what I've learned along my path with others. Perhaps something I say will be of assistance to someone who hasn't trod that part of the path yet. Each person I help in the tiniest bit brings me great joy.

If you take the time to read my previous blogs, you will see I have been going through a growth spurt myself. It isn't always easy but it is always welcome because I know once I'm on the other side of it that I'm am more at peace and more myself than I ever was before. Two steps backwards yields three forward so it's baby steps but it's steps! I am so very grateful I am here and I can do this! And I want to share with you what is going on in my life and how I go about it. Maybe you can gain something from it or maybe you can shed some light on something for me! We're all in this together in the end.

We live in an exciting time. So much is happening cosmically and that is one of the reasons for my growth spurt. The other, of course, is Reiki. I asked for it and the daily Reiki treatments I give to myself assure that I remain firmly centered in my own growth. Reiki can do that for you as well. It can bring about wonderful changes, healing ancient emotional wounds and allowing us to grow past our "story." Then we get the amazing opportunity to create our own unique and new story! What fun!

Of course it can also help with the more "real" problems in our lives--illness, depression, monetary issues. I personally have experienced all of these and have used Reiki to pulll myself out of these. I am cancer-free, depression free, and my financial situation is just amazing! And I can thank Reiki for it all.

The greatest thing about Reiki is that it cannot in anyway bring any harm to anyone or anything! Because the basis of Reiki, Universal Life Force Energy, is unconditional love. Love, it's self, cannot cause hurt. It can only heal. Love is just pure perfect energy...a wave particle of endless power and endless quantities. You get as much as you allow in. Step aside, stop trying to control things, and more love will pour in. It's so easy and so difficult! We are the "difficult factor;" we get in our own way. Let me give you an example. Have you ever tried to do something, tried so very hard that if you could have willed it into happening it would have? And yet you didn't succeed at it. Did you ever give up trying so hard and reach over one last time just in frustration to find that voilá, it worked?! It's because you finally got out of your own way, you stopped trying. You were trying so hard you got in the way of it happening. You were trying to control the outcome. But you can't. We can't control outcomes. We can't control anything but ourselves. (And I'm here to tell you, controlling me is a full-time job that I just barely succeed at sometimes!) LOL Once we relax, and stop being dependent on a certain outcome it can happen...we make the space for it to happen. Reiki can help you relax and get out of your own way.

Anyway, welcome again to our new readers and thank you to all of you! Please feel free to contact me with any questions you may have--there are no stupid questions, only fear makes us think that.
love, light & hugs
leslie

Good Morning!
And it's yet another beautiful, sunny day in Las Vegas! I never thought I'd say this but I miss the variations of weather I saw in Alaska--a couple of hours of gray would be a nice relief from the heat! Wow, I just said 'relief from the heat'--I have never thought that way before--maybe Alaska had a greater effect on me than I thought!
Summer Solstice is past once more. This year with all the planetary happenings, Solstice has brought up a lot of emotions for me. It is a time of change (change is the one constant we can count on!). For me the changes seem huge and difficult. But as my dear friend Linda pointed out (and not too gently either), it's only huge and difficult because I make it so. Because I resist allowing it to just happen. Because i believe it must be difficult and huge. Change my perspective and voilá, it is simple and easy. Thursday it was not easy. Today with a couple of days of perspective between, it seems much simpler (may be still not easy but because indeed, I did make it more complicated than it needed to be) but simpler.
As a result of this, the questions weighing in right now is--there is a fine line between acknowledging our feelings and feeling them so that they can be released and the line between wallowing in the feelings and letting them overtake us. Where is that line? What are the symptoms that you are about to cross it? How do you keep from crossing it? I haven't got the answers to these questions yet but please, keep on reading because I will come up with them for myself. Anything I learn I am compelled to share with my dear readers. If it helps--that's great and wonderful. If not, c'est la vie. (That's life.)
Maybe it is like the difference between pain and suffering. Pain is what you feel when you prick your finger. Suffering is when you see that you are going to prick your finger and you feel the anticipation of the pain. By anticipating the pain, we create the suffering--suffering is totally self-induced. Pain is in the moment, the now. Can you translate this from pain to the feeling line? I'm working on it. I've almost got it...

Hi There, again!
Nice to see you joining me today. I'm sorry I haven't written for a few days, here's why. See my wonderfully fabulous, amazingly, brilliant web guy has hooked me up with a potential vendor for my HealThy Self™ quilts! And the vendor wants to see samples. (Yea!) But I don't have any samples made. That's because I've sold everything I've made (that's good thing!). So I need to make more. The logistics of that is further complicated because when I got this information I was sitting in a cabin on the Kenai Peninsula of Alaska...about 200 miles from Anchorage and 2,500 miles from my sewing machine and supplies! It makes it a bit difficult to sew. I could buy a machine and supplies in Anchorage but a) I'd still be missing something and b) I wasn't in Anchorage, I was on Jakolof Bay, accessible by air or water only. And c) the ferry was due in and well, it just seemed the sensible thing to do was to send me back to my stuff in sin city. So, now I'm in Anchorage killing a few hours before I can get on a plane and back to the "lower 48." So that's why I haven't written for a few days.

My trip up here to the "last frontier" has been very interesting. No, not in the way that you think. Yes, it's beautiful (especially during the rare moments of sunshine). And yes, there are critters and green stuff everywhere that I can't see anywhere else. But, that's not what has made it interesting for me. I sorta expected those things. What has surprised me is myself. I was privileged to ride on the Alaska State Ferry system from Bellingham, WA up the inside passage, across the Gulf of Alaska and around the Kenai Peninsula to Seldovia, AK (with several stops and side trips along the way). This took nearly two weeks. Before I even got to Seldovia I was nearly panicky wanting to 'escape.' Escape what? I kept asking myself. No answer. When I got to Seldovia the intimacy of being with someone in a one room cabin sent me reeling a bit. Why? I'd always wanted to be truly close to someone and now, here I'm living it and I want to RUN! What on earth has come over me?

This lovely man whom I'd corresponded with for nearly 6 months and whom had graciously paid for the entire trip without any complaint or expectation from me was "making me crazy." He's very meticulous; very exacting in how he goes about his daily life in his world. When he came to visit me in my world (several times), he seemed to be quite flexible and now, "who the hell is this?"! Whoa, Nelly! So I'm struggling with this. (Oh, and did I mention? Before the trip I'd taken all my worldly possessions, sold half of them and put the rest in storage. I drove my two cats to be with my family in Texas while I was traveling for an indefinite period of time [I love my cats, like children]. And, I have enough funds to get me through August and then I'll be stone cold broke. No stress, none at all!)

As I struggle with the "who is this man and where did the man I 'know' go," we arrive at his home in Anchorage. (It might help to know I have a history of controlling men in my life and the past couple of years have been all about breaking those past trends.) There I meet his son. A typical teen. Polite enough for the first couple of days and then terribly put-upon and bothered by "Daaaaad" and adults in general. Typical. :) That's okay, I expected that, too. But what I didn't expect and wasn't prepared for was the first time I went to hug this man I'd grown so fond of while in his home. "No physical displays in front of my son--he needs time to get used to the idea." Idea of what? And why the heck didn't you prepare me for this? "Say, you know, when we get to my house, we need to cool it a bit around my son." I could have understood that. Ouch, that hurt! Really. Maybe I am overly sensitive, lord knows I've been accused of being that so many, many times, but it hurt anyway. So. Here I am, homeless, in a very strange place, 2500 miles from anyone and anything I know, and now I'm being told I have to watch what I say and do. In other words, I'm not free to be me. At least, that's what came through my filter.

Talk about setting off emotional bombs! All over the place things were exploding inside of me. It whirled and twirled about until it became this huge whirlpool sucking the life out of me. Morose, depressed, sad, confused, lost, frightened--yeah, all those words fit how I felt. And I'm suppose to be showing this family what a wonderful person I am and how I might be able to fit into their family! Riiiiiiggggght. Oh, and by the way, I hadn't seen a truly sunny day since I'd left Las Vegas--over 14 days ago. That didn't help any either. (Vegas has like 340 days of sunshine--those aren't partly cloudy days either)! From my short experiences here, I think Alaska gets about 25 sunny days, another 50 or so partly cloudy days and the rest are grey! (I certainly hope, for the sake of the people of Alaska, that my assessment is wrong, here.)

So I became this hyper critical, super sensitive, insecure bundle of plasma masquerading as a spiritual human being for a time. Luckily, I've become very observant of my body and my responses so I had some feedback that I was on a ride I didn't particularly care to be on. AND it's very apparent this was all my own fault. (Like turning my ankle--hadn't done that in years but it always happens when I'm not paying attention to something that really needs me to be present.) Hautily I thought I was able to release most expecations regarding my trip to the Great White North. I failed miserably at that. And, I know that whenever someone around me is being "impossible" that it is just a reflection of myself and a means for me to see what I have refused to see in the past, acknowledge it's existence in me, release judgement against that aspect of myself and ultimately, change the behavior so I am more in alignment with the true me. As I sat there thinking, "He's being too controlling; He's too bossy with the kids; He's this, he's that" it hit me. "Mirror, Mirror on the wall!" It helped me (a whole lot) to have a lovely long broad rocky beach to walk on during the times when I was activated and angered. A whole lot! There I couldn't lie to myself. In the midst of all that raw beauty, the heartbeat of Mother Earth herself coming up in the waves meeting the shore, how could I deny in my heart the truth right in front of me? I couldn't. Another might have been able to but I couldn't. SO! Now I'm looking at myself and seeing that I am still quite controlling; and prideful; and hautey; and I need to learn to shut up and listen better. And, of course, I expect myself to do this for both myself and the people I'm with through total, unconditional love. Yes, yes, that's the goal. But it sure ain't the reality boys and girls! Yea, THAT lifted my mood—NOT!

Thank you dear reader for making it this far, there really is a point to all of this I promise.

Just knowing you are living in a mirror sometimes can help. It forced me to acknowledge how I was being just as positional as the man I was with was being with his son. Seeing that, I resisted the desire to RUN and stayed. I had to force myself at first and I found each day I was plotting my escape but I stayed. I'm very grateful I did. Actually, I'm sitting here at the airport wondering if I shouldn't have stayed a bit longer. (But business calls and there is that little thing about income through August and then caput...) Anyway. Each day got a little easier but there was always the undercurrent of "This isn't what I expected. It's not what I want. Not for me, not for my life. Why does it keep showing up in my life?" hummmm. Good question. That mirror thing again. I found it easier the following week to be more accepting and tolerant of him being how he is. Just letting him be who ever he is when ever he is and not attempting to change it or force it or even say anything. Just Be. Then the email came through with the inquiry from my vendor for samples. Suddenly, there was my way out. A reasonable, rational, provided by Spirit, exit! Even though at any time I could have just said, "you know, I think it's time for me to head south." You would be surprised at the change in me. At once I was happy-go-lucky, animated, smiling me again. What the? It wasn't like I was a hostage or a prisoner or something...well, apparently I was a prisoner of my own self! Ain't that a kick? Guess who was making me miserable? Me! Who could change that? Me. That my friends, is my whole point of this essay. Change your perspective, truly change it, and it changes everything. So--is the world you live in real? Or is it just a mirror of you reflecting back in a vain attempt to teach you about yourself?

Good Morning!
How are you today? If you didn't say Great, why? What's up? What's bothering you? Can you let it go? Forget about it! When you dwell on things they eat at you...if you're dwelling on say Ice Cream it might be difficult to see where dwelling on ice cream is a problem! But if you're dwelling on you too big feet that's totally unproductive. Heck, look at Shaquille O'Neill, you think you have big feet? It could be worse! And I have a dear friend who had surgery on both feet as a child and walks in pain every day of his life--he'd be happy to trade feet with you. Does that make you more grateful for your "too big" feet? It does me.

See, my point here is perspective. How are you looking at things? Through what lens, what filter are you peering? Are you restricting yourself, your opportunities with that lens or filter? All we have to do is shift our perspective and voilá, life is different. And "life" didn't change. We did. We changed our perspective so we could better see what is really there!

Okay, okay, I did say "All we have to do…," yes, it's easier said than done. Practice my friend! Practice, Preactice, Practice.

Take a look at my previous blog. What was that all about? Changing my perspective on a day where my heart was on my sleeve. I had to put it back where it belongs and shift my persepctive and focus off of me and onto the world. That took a couple of days to complete but I did it. If I can, you can! Most certainly you can! :)

By writing out my feelings I was able to "zoom in" on what I was dwelling upon. Finding that, I could shift gears and change my perspective. As a bonus, I got a gentle reminder from Spirit about a couple of the life lessons I'm working on in this life time. Like approval. Right now I need at least daily reminders that I already have all the approval I need, that I don't have to go looking for it anywhere at all. Spirit loves me. I am part of the Universal Consciousness which is pure love so how could I possibly not have approval? Because I forget to remember I have it. I forget sometimes to allow it into my heart. I remember the courage it takes to have no walls around my heart and allow the love to flow in freely. Yes, this sets me up to be hurt. But. Can anyone truly hurt me emotionally? (We're not talking physical pain here, that's different).

Only if I allow someone the power over me can they hurt me emotionally. Only if I care more about what that person thinks of me than I care of what I think of me can I be hurt. Think about that and let it soak in a bit. Why would you care more about someone else's opinion of you than your own opinion of you? hummm…

So, today the sun is shining brightly. And for now I'm on the Kenai Peninsula of Alaska so this is a rare day--bright sunshine. And I'm not going to waste it so I'll sign off for now and go sit in it basking in the sun (even if I have to wear my parka!) ha!
Perhaps you could take a few minutes and do the same, go bask in something, just to indulge yourself, for no other reason. Five minutes won't kill you and it might do a world of good.

love light & hugs
leslie

Hi!
Well, it's appropriate to start my blogging today--it's my best friend's birthday! Carolyn and I have known each other since we were in the 6th grade--sometimes I think she knows me better than I know myself! And today, I really really wish I could talk to her but she's in India (hooray for her!) and about to leave for London. (Man, I don't envy her that flight! Talk about your jet lag! Ouch.)

AND, today is also my friend Marty's birthday. He's husband to another of my best friends, Leanne. Leanne is totally swamped today because her business conference begins this week and of course she's in charge of a lot of the set up--she's sort of air traffic control for the event, something she does really really well. Though I wish she could learn to be nicer to herself--she is one amazing lady!

Today my challenge is to learn that no one causes my feelings. They may trigger them and that's a good thing. Because once triggered I can look at them and then release them. Today, that is an especial challenge. And, I am challenged to speak up. I am ever so good at swallowing my words and being a "good girl." But that habit made me sick, like almost dying with cancer sick so I don't want to do that any more. I am so very sick and tired of being taken for granted. What exactly is there about it that I keep creating that in my life? Obviously there's a lesson here as well. Maybe I don't value me quite as good as I could? (Notice I said could, there are no "shoulds" that's a myth created by others who want to control us but they can't only we can control us and that, just barely!)

Enough for today. People are cooking food here where I am and I want to elbow my way into some of it.

love light & hugs
leslie

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My Name is Leslie Fisher - I am a Reiki Master and I will be your hostess on "Reiki Talk". I look forward to knowing you!

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